I Won’t Pick Up The Trash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 101

Chapter 101

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The room Kalian gave me was bigger and more luxurious than the room I had stayed in before.

I wondered if I could use such a nice room.

However, as the room was so big and nice, it made me feel burdensome to ask for a change, so I quietly unpacked my luggage. 

It was such shabby luggage that didn’t fit in this luxurious room.

Among the clothes I had, the only one that matched this room was the uniform I was wearing now. All was plain and unsightly.

Why are things that weren’t unnoticed in Hutton noticed here? 

Should I go home and get some clothes? There are still some nice clothes at home. And I think it will be good to bring underwear and other things as well.

Ah, I have to let Sarah know that I will be staying in the palace for now.

Sarah would return in about 4 days, but there’s a possibility that she would come back early. It would be better to go ahead and leave a note.

Since I was going for a while, I left everything else behind and took only my pass and wallet.

I wanted to ask the servant to call a carriage, but I decided to just walk as I thought it was better to walk a little. 

Before leaving the palace, I stopped by the cashier in the outer palace and received my unpaid salary.

The pocket of gold coins was quite heavy.

“The salary is higher than I thought.”

Hearing me talking to myself in surprise, the cashier said with a slight smile.

“That’s not a lot. Baron Delrond receives more.”

“Really?”

“Yes. It’s because he works overtime and all-nighter a lot. His Majesty told me to take good care of it as much as its difficulty.”

Ah, that’s why I received a lot. 

It’s not as much as Baron Delrond but he had worked overtime a lot to prepare for parties and do this and that.

“Then I’ll get going now.” 

“Goodbye. Ah, and congratulations on receiving your baron title, Baron Aster.”

It was just a courtesy, but it felt good.

“Thank you. Then, I’ll get going.”

After saying goodbye to the official, I left the cashier.

After passing through the somewhat noisy outer palace, I left the Imperial Palace.

I stopped for a moment and watched the familiar street and people moving busily.

It was the street that I had passed countless times, but for some reason, it felt new. I kind of missed it, too.

“Ah, I shouldn’t be doing this.”

I had plenty of time, but I didn’t have time to relax. Because I had to go back before sunset.

I hurriedly took the steps I had stopped and headed home.

On the way, I stopped by a general store to buy letter papers and envelopes. It was for Misa and the servants of the Duke of Williot.

When sending the letter, I would probably write a request not to tell Philen as much as possible, but the faithful butler was likely to tell Philen. Then Philen would rip the letter right away, right? 

“…”

It felt bitter thinking that Philen would do that.

The letter might not reach Misa and the others, but I still wanted to send it.

While I was thinking about what to write in the letter, I arrived before I knew it. 

The vine roses all disappeared. Only the green leaves were growing profusely.

“I need to cut some of these branches.”

Even if I would go to a new mansion, it was polite to keep the rented house clean.

After tidying things up, I thought to call the gardener and roughly ripped off what was visible. Then after a while, I let go of it because of the rose thorns.

As I entered the house, quiet silence greeted me.

Dust was piled up on the furniture. It was obvious that its owner had been away for a long time.

“Should I do some cleaning?”

I didn’t have enough time to do a full clean, but I could clean simply.

First, I changed my uniform so that it didn’t get dirty, then tied my hair high. After that, I took a broom, duster, and mop from the storage.

I was going to wipe off the dust that had piled up on the furniture with the mop, but I heard a bang outside the door. 

“…what is it?”

It was a violent, smashing sound to call it a knock. And it sounded like a falling sound.

I was scared to open the door, but I wanted to check it, so I looked out through the window a little away.

There was nothing visible in particular. 

Did I hear it wrong?

Never mind then, I’m going to clean up again.

Tok Tok-

I heard knocks on the window.

I turned around involuntarily and stopped in surprise when I saw the man standing in front of the window.

“Long time no see.”

Bright blonde hair fluttered in the wind. His golden eyes twisted with anger flashed dangerously, staring at me.

“Can we talk?”

Why is Philen here?

Isn’t he supposed at the Williot estate?

I looked at Philen in bewilderment at his unexpected appearance.

Philen’s mouth was smiling, but not his eyes. His eerie stare gave me goosebumps. 

Why is he so angry?

What’s going on? 

Seeing him looking at me like that, he must have been angry because of me, but I couldn’t figure out why.

…don’t tell me, is he still like that because I told him I want to break up?

BANG-!

As I was wondering why he was like that, Philen hit the window hard. It was hard enough that the hard glass cracked.

He glared at me as if he was going to break the window, saying. 

“Open the door right now.”

“…I don’t want to.”

How could I open the door when Philen came out like that? 

BANG-!

When I refused, Philen hit the window hard again.

Crack. There’s more crack in the window.

Is he going to break the window and come in?

I backed away, trembling slightly with the rising fear.

Philen smiled at me.

“Should I break the window myself, or will you open the door with your hands?”

A supreme duke threatened to break someone else’s window and break into someone else’s house without permission.

It was absurd and ridiculous, but what was more ridiculous was that Philen meant it. 

What should I do? It was a problem whether I opened the door or not.

I thought hard and finally opened the door.

If I ran into Philen, I would choose the one that made him less angry anyway.   

…though it didn’t seem to have any effect.

Philen stormed in as soon as I opened the door.

I didn’t close the door. I left it wide open just in case. Because I was thinking of running out if I had to.

Philen glanced over the house and snorted.

“Is the emperor’s aide living in a small house like this? That’s funny.”

What Kalian was concerned about occurred. 

I already had the thought of moving to a new mansion as soon as possible so that Kalian didn’t lose his face.

But on the other hand, I was so angry. I was wondering who he was to judge someone else’s house, which was given to me by His Majesty the Emperor.

“You didn’t come here to judge the house I live in, did you?”

“That can’t be. Do I look so free?”

“Then go ahead, say what you want to say and…”

BANG-

I was about to ask him to leave, but he hit the wall hard. Powder dripped from the broken wall.

“Leila.”

Philen looked at me with an eerie smile.

“What are you saying to me, a duke?”

“…”

“Now that you’ve become the emperor’s aide, you don’t think you have a higher position than me, do you?”

“…how can that be?”

Philen, a duke and commander-in-chief of the Empire, was higher in rank and position than me. It didn’t make sense for me, an aide and baron, to open my mouth to him.

I bowed to Philen and apologized.

“I apologize, Duke.”

“It’s good you know now.”

Philen went inside without hesitation and sat down on the sofa.

“Are you going to listen while standing?”

I glanced at the still-open door and nodded.

Then, with a small smile, Philen pointed to the chair with the tip of his chin.

“I won’t eat you, so sit down.”

“…”

“Don’t make me say it twice, sit down.”

I didn’t want to sit down, but I had no choice but to sit as I saw his smile slowly disappearing from his lips.

I sat as close to the door as possible and fully prepared to stand up right away at any time. While at it, I continued to read Philen’s mood. 

His golden eyes that sank quietly were frightening. He also looked furious as I saw his face had hardened there.

I didn’t know why he was angry. And I couldn’t guess why either. 

“Cecily gave birth to a baby.” 

I should say congratulations even if it was empty words, right?

“And not too long ago, we had the baby’s funeral.”

I was going to say that, but I kept my mouth shut at his following words. Because the baby he said had a funeral was probably the baby Cecily gave birth to.

Cecily looked healthy, so I thought she would give birth safely, but there seemed to be a problem. 

What should I say to console him?

“Why?”

As I was thinking about what I should say, Philen suddenly asked.

I looked at him at his sudden question. 

Philen put a smile on his lips and looked at me seriously, asking again.

“Why did you kill my baby?”

I was about to say the most trivial words to console him, but then Philen said something out of the blue. 

When I stared blankly because I didn’t understand what he said, he clenched his fist tightly as if he was going to strangle me at any moment, then asked again.

“Did you hate me that much? If so, you can take revenge on me. Why did you kill an innocent baby? WHY?!”

I came to my senses at his loud roar.    

“I never did that.”  

I didn’t know why Philen thought so, but it was an absurd misunderstanding. 

I did nothing to Cecily’s baby.

“HA!”

At my answer, Philen snorted and swept his hair up as if he was at a loss for words. He seemed to be convinced that I was the one who did it. 

There must be a reason why he’s so sure. Or it might be just his absurd guess.

“Why do you think I was the one who did it?”

When I asked him so that I could be sure which one it was, Philen tilted the corner of his mouth at an angle.

“If I told you that Cecily took the abortion drug you prepared, would you get it?”